As I sit watching Glee on flight CX100 to Hong Kong it strikes me that I am now only ok to talk about what I have just been through.It seems the decision to leave everything you know behind to live overseas is actually the easy bit. No one ever warned me that it is horrible saying goodbye to your family. As much as we may clash at times, the thought of not seeing them for a year or two, or three is gut wrenching. I tried not to dwell on it, and indeed put it out of my mind until the very last, but still it was really really sad to say goodbye.I didn’t realise how responsible I felt for them until leaving and now I feel like I have let them down a little. How can I leave when they have so many challenges ahead of them? Aren’t I meant to be helping them in their journey?
Then there was the hand-over of Harry (our beloved Blue Cattle Dog/person). He has been a part of our little family since 2001 and giving him away, ‘temporarily’ though it may be, literally broke my heart. Am even tearing up as I write this.
I was stressed and nervous getting on the plane in Cairns. My luggage weight didn’t help this cause either. Apparently ‘moving overseas’ doesn’t qualify as an excuse for extra baggage. Frustratingly I had, in the presence of witnesses, weighed my suitcase but the damn scales were obviously out… by 6kg! Unless of course it is an airline scam rather than my scales being in error… Too late now.
Then the lady at check-in commented how hard jobs are to come by in the UK at the moment. Great, not only am I stressed about interrogation from British immigration being that I don’t have a job lined up, but I have to worry about not getting a job… But wait up, if I didn’t believe something would eventuate I wouldn’t have left in the first place… But it just added to the tension. All I wanted to do was give my dog a hug at that point, but Harry was far away, in the excellent care of my Auntie and Uncle.
Flash forward to 5:45pm Wed afternoon. We are flying (in turbulence, hope it is not the fact my BlackBerry is on recording these thoughts) over the middle of Australia somewhere and I have Glee playing on the in-flight system – that show amuses me no end! Sue Sylvestor was just commenting that everyone needs to step out of their comfort zone to be great and lead a fulfilling life. What a timely message for me.
There are many people I didn’t get to talk to, Facebook or call back before our emotional departure to a new life. Will contact them one by one over the coming weeks… After all, I am currently unemployed lol. It’s funny, I couldn’t quite categorise how I was feeling, but then a mate from Scotland sent us a Facebook note saying “you must be feeling quite emotional at the moment,” and there it was – summed up on my profile Wall. And she’s yet another person I’m yet to reply to…
I did however, find time to drop into Sydney Airport’s Pandora store so as to add to my ‘travel’ collection of souvenir charms. Fortunately a cute new Aussie kangaroo charm was made available as recently as May. It now sits with my treasured collection of Pandora beads as a reminder of my beautiful home, friends and family – all of whom I take too much for granted. See you following this international adventure. x
PS Aug 5 Hong Kong stopover tip – Ajisen Ramen is open 24/7 in the Terminal 1 Departures lounge – it’s cheap and delicious!! Also the Regal Airport Hotel within walking distance from the airport is excellent and super convenient when you arrive late at night.